May 5, 2008

We have been trying to adapt to home life with two kids. Kaydence is staying on her feeding schedule pretty well, but she is refusing to breast feed. I am not giving up yet, and we try to breast feed at least once a day...and I pump the rest of the time in bottles for her. The herbal supplements did not help me, and the lactation specialists said to start Reglan after a week of the natural supplements. Today is the first day of starting the Reglan, and I have had no side effects as of right now. My milk is starting to dry up, and I am trying not to get too frustrated with it. The Reglan is really my last attempt to keep some kind of milk production for Kaydence. Larry is being real supportive of me, and he says I am being too hard on myself. It is just frustrating because this is something I was willing to do for as long as I could...and I can't even make enough for one bottle for her. I feel like I am failing her, but I know that she will be fine even if I can't give her my milk. So I am still giving it my all, and I am going to schedule an appointment with a lactation specialist in Hagerstown to see if there are any other things I can try with the baby. They offer classes on a regular basis, so I am up for trying them out.

Kaydence and I hung out in bed most of the day. We practiced breast feeding and she slept most of the afternoon. Once Larry got home, Kaylee and I went to Wal-Mart to get some groceries and some things we needed around the house. Larry stayed home with the baby, so I made sure I changed her diaper before I left! lol. Kaylee picked out a movie for her DVD collection, and we picked up some cough medicine for her. She even got a slim jim in the check out line!

We finished the night up with a home cooked meal. Granted, we didn't get to eat until 9 p.m. but it was a home cooked meal...lol. Kaydence even sat with us at the dinner table...she layed on my lap because she was fussy. I told Larry to let her cry and put her down, but he thought that would be cruel. lol. We will definitely have a spoiled baby on our hands in the next few weeks. He even let his bath water get cold after dinner because she wanted him to hold her. lol. Oh I love him so much!